things that need to be said.

I spent the last couple hours with a great friend of mine and during some point in the night I said to the barista...'I have a question. And then I have a statement'.  We laughed about it when we sat down but then as the night continued and the more I talked and processed everything that is happening in my life and everything that is changing and everything I feel like I just not very good at (which by the way are things that I once thought I was alright at) I realized that I have questions.  And I have statements.  And I am going to ask and say them because dangit words have meaning.  And the things I tell people have weight to them.  Like when I say I miss you, or I'll know you for a long time or I appreciate you.  Those come with full truth.  And I just don't think there are enough people who say what they mean and want to say because they are afraid someone wont get it.  Well you know what, I dont care if you dont get it, I'll explain it to you, and I'll give you grace when you mess up if you give me grace when I mess up.  But my words are true and they come with my full heart.  Cause I'm learning that I dont know how to not invest fully and I dont know how to love with reservation.  Something I still trying to figure out but I think words are meant to be said and acknowledged.