A story about an Island on a Lake.

So it's been almost a year since I graduated and it has been one of those year that I am totally thankful for but would never choose to live over again.  Not because I hated it, but because there were so many unknown moments and so many moments of confusion and disarray.  Which is growing, but I'd rather not do it all in one year again...that's all.

I've been listening to those I know who are graduating in May and I remember the feeling of being lost and confused about what you're to do with your life now.  Everyone is asking, "whats next" and you're probably only planning for your weekend ahead, trying to squeeze every last second out of where we are.  I know, trust me I know.  Something very profound was said to me in my moments of turmoil last year and it was this.  "Why are you planning for your whole life when you know God is probably planning something different?  Why not just plan for your next step?  What are you doing in the next 6 months? "  As silly and nieve of a thought that this is, it spoke worlds to me.  I didn't have to have it all figured out because realistically, God has probably got something different in mind.  So I chose to determine the next step.  And it was such a relief when I stopped stressing about what my long term future looked like and just thought about the immediate future...it was like the feeling of walking towards someone and you don't know which way they're going to go so you do a little dance back and forth and finally they chose a direction and you no longer feel awkward.  (This happens to me often enough that most of the time I just stop and let them chose.  I get so uncomfortable...bikes are the worst)

Today we sang a song in church called Forever Reign by Hillsong and every time I hear this song I am reminded of one of my most treasured moments of my last year.  Standing on stage, singing with a couple hundred jr high students at camp, and watching them in tears and feeling the presence of God moving and working in the lives of these students.  Every time I sing this song I am brought to this moment of watching these students surrender their path to God.  It was so easy for them in that moment.  And I was reminded of how easy it can be to trust that God is leading me.

All this to say that it's okay to not have you whole life mapped out.  Enjoy the now, think about the next step instead fo the next 50 and surrender your path to God's will...cause I guarantee it will be hard but I also guarantee it will change your life in the best of ways.




Here's the camp I worked at...Its pretty fantastic.