It seems like every day
I fall into something new
Either a trial or temptation
And each one has it's pain.

These lyrics were written by a good friend...they had a different meaning at the time but they seem to explain so many things going on in my life right now that they have taken a different meaning. Lately I've had to wake myself up and tell myself that its going to be a good day because my first reaction is for it to not be. It seems like every once in a while I get stuck in this rut of pain, hurting, and resistance that it's just seems like to much effort to get out. And I know, from times past, that once I do...things will be fine and I will wake up in the morning knowing that it is going to be a good day and not just hoping it will be. I cant wait for that...but right now...every day I fall into something new and each once has it pain.