Conflict...

I sometimes feel like conflict is not merely between two people or friends or family. But rather the greatest conflict we might face in a days time is in our own heart. I usually stray from conflict with others. It makes me uncomfortable and I don't like dealing with it. But when my heart is aching and I'm wrestling within myself I often strive off of it. The feeling of never knowing and always being unsure is something that I need to take care of and deal with when it comes.
Lately my heart has been in conflict. I'm not sure why. It could be from lack of sleep, or classes beginning to pick up, or being responsible for 11 freshmen. But i really think the reason is because I have been running. Running from things like relationships, especially with God. Last night I spent some time with God. Just walking and climbing trees...and I thought about how God gave me the breath I breathe every day.
"Then the Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground. He breathed the breath of life into the man’s nostrils, and the man became a living person." (Gen. 2:7) The breath I have is not mine, the fact that I ever thought it was is a bit ridiculous. Everything I do, every day, in every situation I am in I should be breathing for God. I should be honoring His name in all that I do.
Also, while on my exploration with God, I thought about how excited I get for things. Anything really, birthdays, gifts, events, friends. Then God reminded me how excitement is something that He gave me. Think about how excited God is every time we stand for him. Think about how excited He was when He thought of you...and then when He created you! That is awesome! Its like the ultimate excitement...literally! So every time we are using the breath He gave us to live for Him...ah..its just so cool to think that our Father is so excited for us and for what is going to happen and how He is going to work in our lives.
I think I just need a reminder of this every day so that I will stop running from God and stop my heart from being conflicting and live for Christ in all that I do.