who we are...

I was thinking about something earlier...who we are is an accumulation of our whole lives worth of experiences...think about it...when you are young you are who you are because of the great impact your parents have on you. Then when you start going to elementary school and all throughout high school you become who you are because of your friends, what you get involved in and still who you parents are. Then when you move away to college you finally have a chance to become someone new...be who you actually want to be and not who you are. But what do we end up finding? We find that those same things that we did in earlier years effect the choices we make and the people we choose as friends. So you spend a year or so figuring out how to manage this new part of you and you finally grow comfortable with it and begin to actually like who you've become for once and then you have to go home. I realized that when I came home...the things that I got ride of in my life are still here. Those friends who I wasn't really friends with, the same topics of discussion and the same habits. You try so hard to stay away but fr some reason you get stuck in them...i figured out that its hard to stay away from them and fall back into old habits and routines...but I would rather have a summer of hard work mentally and spiritually then just blow it off and be where I was a year ago...if I did all the growing I've done the last year would be pointless. And to me its not pointless so why make it that way. After that year I found that I am who I want to be...but that takes work.